Von Diaz: Leaving the military can be challenging for veterans, who often feel isolated and adrift.
One group offers them a chance to find meaning again after military service, and to put their skills into action. Team Rubicon deploys a special team of veterans who go into the fray when natural disasters strike.
One of these veterans was Lieutenant Commander Michael Davidson, who after 23 years in the Navy struggled to adapt.
He came to StoryCorps with fellow Navy veteran, Seaman Windy Barton, and recalled the person who first inspired his deep sense of duty.
Windy Barton (WB) and Michael Davidson (MD)
WB: Can you tell me about your grandfather?
MD: Yeah, I called him Pipa. World War II veteran. He was why I joined the Navy. He taught me how to be vulnerable. He was the first man I ever saw cry, and made it okay.
WB: What was Pipa’s nickname for you?
MD: Nub, nubbin, nubs. And, uh, when I joined the Navy and got stationed on my first submarine, I was going down the ladder, and the topside watch looked at me and said, ‘Get hot, nub.’ And I’m like, why would he call me nub? I asked him, just like, ‘Did my grandfather call the boat?’ And he’s like, ‘Why would you ask me that?’
WB: [laughs]
MD: I’m like, ‘Well, because only my grandfather calls me nub.’ And he started to laugh, and he’s just like, ‘Well, that’s a Navy acronym for non-usable body.’
WB: [laughs]
MD: I was – I was devastated. I went and got a roll of quarters at the bowling alley, and I called my grandfather, told him I had made it to the boat and checked in, and that I also knew what nub meant.
I’m like, ‘You’ve been calling me a non-usable body my entire life?’
WB: [laughs]
MD: And he said, ‘Yeah, you kind of have been. Go do something with it.’ And I think I have and continue to do so.
WB: I would agree with that. Definitely. Changed a lot of lives.
MD: Yeah, thank you. Mine included.
You know, I remember when I had just gotten out of the Navy and I had lost that community and my identity, and so had like zero purpose. And you know at the time, like, I, I was having suicidal ideation. So, to go out there and help people, it got me to looking forward instead of looking back.
WB: Yeah, definitely. You know, after the Navy, I was able to be a mom, be a part of every little thing that my children have done. But I missed firefighting and emergency response stuff. I just felt like I had let myself wither.
And so, I kind of jumped feet first. And my strongest memory on deployments was when we were in Louisiana because there was a flood in Baton Rouge. I happened to knock on a door. The homeowner answered and she was angry. We were three weeks post disaster and nobody had shown up yet. Their whole house was still covered in water. And her son’s autistic. Well, the next day we had two strike teams out there and they were helping that lady. And, she was crying. And I remember the relief ‘cause she wanted to be in her home.
And it goes back to immediate impact. When I go on a disaster, I can pack my entire bag in less than 20 minutes and be out the door.
MD: Mmhmm.
WB: … You need boots, you need three pairs of pants, you need 18 pairs of socks.
MD: Yeah.
WB: And a lot of veterans have seen the bad side of a non-natural disaster with war, and I think being able to help something go back together is really the call to their hearts.
MD: Yeah. I wish I would have had this when I transitioned out.
WB: I’ll agree with that.
MD: And, you know, you’ve taught me that I still got a lot in the tank in terms of belief of people. ‘Cause you’re a damn good shipmate and I didn’t know how much I missed that.
WB: I appreciate that a lot.
MD: You bet.
